Yeah it’s a post about current USPOL stuff. If you’re not in the headspace to deal with that, please don’t stress yourself out further by reading this.
Really for me this past Friday was more or less like any other. Crawling through logs in Splunk, trying to figure out if alerts were real or not. Then I get a text from my mother saying, “Roe v Wade has been struck down.” Needless to say I had to take 5 after reading that. The more I read about it the more horrified I became. It wasn’t a surprise by any means, with the leak of the draft opinion in May everyone knew this was coming. It didn’t make it any less scary though.
Since late 2019 to early 2020 I’ve been increasingly worried about the state of the US. Not that I wasn’t worried in 2016 with the election of Trump, I just shoved it out of my mind, trying to convince myself it wouldn’t be that bad. How wrong I was. Now we have a ruling that fundamentally strips away the rights of nearly 50% of Americans. And more is on the chopping block.
It’s not something I talk about a lot for various reasons, but I am bisexual. So to read in Thomas’ concurrence that cases that made my mere existence federally legal, like Lawrence v. Texas and Obergefell v. Hodges, are next to be struck down is terrifying. I don’t want to live in a place where an immutable part of my being is illegal. And this is a feeling I know is shared by many others.
As I’m sure you’ve heard people upon hearing this news went to protest. So far all peacefully. But that did not stop Arizona police from breaking up a peaceful protest with tear gas. Or from Capitol Police in DC to be full activated with snipers and riot squads. A tactic conveniently not present during January 6th 2021.
And I worry that this is going to be it. A few peaceful protests around the country, some dispersed by riot police, others petering out from lack of action. Fundamentally, nothing will change. The voices shouting will fall into silence. Our elected officials will continue to use this as an excuse to siphon funds from concerned liberals. No new laws will be passed federally. No action will be taken to stop further cases from being overturned. America will continue to decay into a theocracy.
Those willing to actually fight for their rights will be killed and arrested. Those who know peaceful protest does not affect change will be bound and gagged. Those who learned from the past and their fight for rights, such as the community defense of the Black Panthers and the bricks at Stonewall, will be crushed and trampled. The so called allies of these minority groups will turn a blind eye because they dare fight, rather than asking politely.
Frankly, I’m lost. Do I take the cowards route and flee this crumbling country? Or do I put my life at risk fighting for what I believe in?
I don’t know.
My gut says run. Get the fuck out. But will I be able to live with the guilt of abandoning my brothers and sisters? I’m privileged to have a multitude of opportunities to leave. But there are better people than me who will never have these opportunities. Do I count my blessings or do I cast them to wind?
I don’t know.
I just don’t know.